I have been thinking lately, about all the moments and the activities I’ve been surrounded with in recent times.
It has become quite uncertain, as to the period I might be living out; whether my past or my future. Scratch that…my inspirational side tells me I might be living my past.
“If you are depressed you are living in the past.
If you are anxious you are living in the future.
If you are at peace you are living in the present.”- Lao Tzu
Here scrolling through my album (picture album since 2013), and I’m having surges of nostalgic realizations. But one quote just hit me (I’ve been a ‘quote collector’ for years)…
It then occurred to me: ‘I might have made some mistakes…’ some mistakes with the goals I set; some mistakes with the decisions/indecisions I took; some mistakes with the thought processes I put myself through….In a nutshell, some mistakes with the ‘experiences’ I’ve had so far.
There was a time in my life, I believe 2009 or so; all I craved for were ‘experiences’. I wanted to live out life for myself…I wanted leadership experience, corporate experience, ministry experience and so on.
What I never understood then was the ‘wear and tear’ that comes along with a ‘plethora’ of experience(s)…and the need for a reasonable balance. Don’t get me wrong at this stage though, I have loved my experience(s) and the decisions I have made; they’ve enabled me grow over the years…simply epic! I can totally write a book about them (matter of fact; I am writing a book about them) 🙂
My point today is…the mistake(s) I may have made may have been my inability to connect one experience to another. It wasn’t enough to fast-track one moment just because of the need to experience the other. I should have taken more time to breathe in every moment I was in.
“Life is not measured by the number of breaths you take, but by the moments that take our breath away.”- Maya Angelou
I know this quote from the depth of my heart; I don’t need to look it up today; because there was a moment in my life when I basked in ‘quotes’ and more quotes.
So, I’m going to take my time this moment to bask in the experiences I have been having lately; connect every dot possible; live in the present and enjoy in retrospect my past experiences, while hoping for that great future.
Yes indeed! I may have made some mistakes, but today I learn from them; I may not be where I want to be, but I love where I am presently; I may have a dreamy idea of what the future holds, but I know Who holds the future (God Almighty)!
Because I know He is watching over all the moments of my life (past, present, future, eternal); and I know He loves me so bad…I will forgive myself for all the mistakes I will still make (in the process of living a godly experiential life) 🙂
So, when that day comes to tell my story of how nothing could hold down my moments; I would say among other words, it was Grace and more Grace!!!
“Mistakes are painful when they happen, but years later a collection of mistakes is what is called experience.”- Dennis Waitley